Lonely!

Well...its almost been a week since Michael has left and I dont think it has fully sunk in yet! I Just miss him so much! I am trying to hold it together as best I can! Just trying to stay busy with family and friends! It seems like FOREVER until he comes home. If I was alone and in my own house I think that I would be crying all the time...but since I am staying with family I think that they expect me to keep it in. Which I know is completely false! I just dont't wanna break down in front of them. I think about him all the time..is he safe, is he lonely, what if his deployment gets extended?...I think of all the negative. I want to cry so much but i just cant...its hard for me to. I'm not really sure why! I am really lonely right now...I need him here! I need him here for comfort...to make sure he's okay!! I dont know if he is fine in Iraq...I dont understand this war..why are we there? So many soldiers are losing their lives over there and the war is pointless!! They need to come home!...They are all spending the holidays away from their families and for what?.....I am just in a very sad mood tonight!!