i got the deployment blues........

Well....im sitting here alone so i thought it may be a good time for me to blog. I havnt written in a while, this deployment has finally gotten the best of me. I dont sleep at night and everyone keeps trying to get me to go to the drs but i just cant afford another bill. So...today i was driving and i blacked out again, only this time i drove right through a red light and a car almost crashed right into the side of my car. That was the final straw....i had to do something about it, I went and talked to my Aunt who is an RN. She took my BP and it was really high. Im not sure what that means but something has got to change. Im not sure if its just because Michael is gone and im just stressed out or if something is really wrong with me! And on top of all this people just seem to run all over me!! I am so sick of Muskogee, Icannot wait to move back to Ft. Hood. Now dont get me wrong im gonna miss my family but i just dont like it here. Im so ready for Michael to come home!! He comes home on R&R in september and i cant wait! It seems like forever since i have seen him! I want to finally be in his arms again, i want to feel his kiss! Its not too much longer...December is slowly but surely coming! Anyway...im gonna try and eat. I will try to be a better blogger from now on.